In Vincente Rafael’s White
Love and Other Events in Filipino History, he explored writings by women
from the United States in order to examine the role of white women in the benevolent
assimilation of the Philippines. Based on these readings, he concludes that “through
the avid gaze of the natives, white women find their bodies mirrored back to
them, returning as uncanny and therefore undomesticated figures available for
public and promiscuous solicitation” (Rafael, 2000, p. 65). Since arriving to the Philippines
as a white woman, I have had the same experiences that these women wrote about
in the early 1900s. As I walked down the streets in Makati, men felt comfortable
calling out to me and commenting on my appearance. In one case, a group of men
stopped playing basketball to call out to me, “Hey, Barbie! Come here, Barbie!”
In our class discussion, we focused on how white women as
well as mestizas are treated in the Philippines. I was asked if my experiences
in the Philippines were similar to what I would experience in the United States.
Even though catcalling does exist in the United States, I have rarely
experienced it during a casual walk down the street. Where I feel I can go
unnoticed in the United States, I feel like I cannot do the same in the
Philippines. It makes me hyperaware of who I am and what I look like. I feel
that I am objectified by how I look on the outside; I am scrutinized in everything
I do in a way I am not used to back home.
Perhaps this shift comes from the idea that, in the
Philippines, whiteness is “predicated on rather than freed from difference” (Rafael, 2000, p.
65). In America, many people of European descent have disassociated themselves
with their past history and instead taken on the role of being white rather
than be German, Spanish, Italian, etc. I personally have little knowledge of my
family descent and history which has perhaps been forgotten so to further fit
in with the American standard of white. In the United States, people of a
multitude of backgrounds merge together to fit in. In that way, whiteness in
the United States is free of difference and relies on the idea of fitting in to
a certain standard. However, if you do not fit that standard, you face being
ostracized and treated as inferior. On the other hand, in the Philippines,
whiteness is no longer defined as devoid of difference and is instead based on
being different.
Another excerpt from Rafael’s (2000) book states that “colonial
domesticity in the tropics heralded the conjugation of whiteness with femininity
as a sign of public entitlement as well as a source of private ambivalence” (p.
53). I have experience remnants of his statement in my past week in the Philippines.
I feel privileged—not based on my actions or intentions but based on how I look.
This can be represented by one of my first experiences in the Philippines when
I checked into the New World Manila Bay Hotel and was rushed to the front of the
line, past the other guests who were patiently waiting before me. I felt
uncomfortable yet helpless in the situation because this treatment seemed like
standard procedure to the workers yet is very foreign to me.
In the end, I start to wonder if the constant attention or
hyperawareness of one’s actions is how it may be to be non-white in the United
States. How can the experience of being a white woman in the Philippines be related
to or contrasted by the experience of being non-white in the United States?
References
Rafael,
V. (2000). Colonial domesticity: Engendering race at the edge of empire,
1899-1912. In White love and other events in Filipino history. (pp. 52-76).
Durham, NC: Duke University Press.
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